Friday, 3 February 2012

First day nerves


So the day has finally arrived. Lil-lil's first day of school. Despite a bit of anxiety on her part she did great. I've never been prouder of her. She's grown into pure delight.

Me, on the other hand, well I didn't realise just how anxious I was until we were there. I feel a little like I'm throwing my baby into the ocean and yelling 'Swim!' from the shore. A little dramatic, I know.

After we kissed her goodbye, Skip and I  (and Goose and D) walked out into the playground. Skip urged me to go the parents morning tea that was being held as he raced off to work. "It's like the first day for both of you," he said as he ran off in the rain.

Sighing, I pushed aside every feeling telling me to run and headed to the morning tea. I'm socially inept. You will meet me and think I'm a normal person, but walking into a room of people I don't know and having to initiate a conversation with them? My absolute worst nightmare. I'd rather have root canal done. Seriously, I would.

I walked into the room and stood awkwardly as the parents mingled. I watched Goosey inhale the P&C's entire 2012 biscuit budget as I surreptitiously tried to spy an opening in a conversation. Some where. Any where. I stood there feeling like I was floundering. Hating every single moment. I started to wonder why they had morning teas with crap instant coffee and biscuits to break the ice between parents. Surely wine and karaoke would do a better job. Well, for me it would. Give me wine and karaoke and I would be the life of the party. Biscuits and coffee and I'm the awkward idiot wondering how long I have to stand there before I can leave.

After hovering in the corner, I spied a mum I'd spoken to briefly at the Best Start Assessment. She had no friends either and stood looking around. I caught her eye and then we chatted and chatted. We even swapped numbers. Then another mum I know from the hood (who I didn't know was starting her girl) came up and suddenly I almost looked popular. Almost.

I left feeling brighter. This school lark just might be OK. I just hope Lil-lil finds a buddy to hang on to today too.

12 comments:

  1. The 'throwing your baby into the ocean' analogy is DO SPOT ON!

    I'm years away from this day, but that analogy is spot on, & pretty much exactly how I'd feel.

    Also laughed at goosey inhaling a year's worth of biscuit budget. Classic! Apparenty I did that at a funeral when I was 8, & my Dad wanted to die from the embarrassment.

    Cheers to almost looking popular!

    That's how I've managed to fleet through my 29 years! ;)

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  2. P.S what I'm least looking forward to about the school years is actually having to make an effort with my appearance.

    Ugh.

    I adore greasy hair, no makeup & trakkies FAR too much for Dave's liking ;)

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    1. That combo does a regular rotation in my world too. ;)

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  3. Glad Big Girl's school bypassed the 'morning tea' part. I am friendly, but I freeze up a little at those 'networking' thingies. I tend to hovver around the sides and chat to the quieter mums.

    For a minute there I thought you got super pissed when your girl was at school...? Ahh, Nescafe and biscuits. Hardly the same.

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    1. No, no booze here. And probably no biscuits next time as Goose ate them all.

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  4. It's so hard when they go to school and start a whole world without us! I'm glad it's looking good so far!! x

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  5. Oh Corinne I was in your shoes on Monday! Breathed a sigh of relief when it was all over and we were all home safe again together. I drank the instant coffee, chatted inanely all the time thinking 'how is she doing in the classroom?' 'has she got a friend to cling to?'. Luckily she did, and I'm sure Lil-Lil will too! Hope she had a fabulous day!

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    1. She did have a fabulous day and met a friend, she just couldn't remember what her name was!

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  6. Well done - both of you.
    Yes - funnily enough, wine makes me braver and far more interesting too.
    :-) x

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  7. Oh god, I'm with you Corinne, can't stand those 'awkward' moments we get thrust into as parents. At times it almost feels like we're back in the playground ourselves... and I don't even have school aged children yet :o/
    Sounds like you both did very well though. Will be funny to look back on in years to come when you're a seasoned Mama of school kids ;o) xo

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