Monday, 30 July 2012

A party plus 8000 emotions

We had our farewell party on Saturday and while it was fun, I have to say it was a bit of a blur. It's hard when there are so many people you want to chat to and it all goes by so fast and you're trying to keep an eye on three kids.

I stupidly didn't eat and was running on nerves and adrenalin and a couple of glasses of bubbly (and a few ciggies, because it was a party after all).

By the time the big kids were quiet and the baby was in bed and I could finally relax a little, most people had left. I was left worrying about who I didn't get to speak to much and did everyone get enough to eat or drink and all those other worries you have as a party host. But I did have fun, it just makes it all feel real now.

The dates for our departure have been pushed back and pulled forward again. It's unsettling. We still don't know when we're leaving.

It's hard saying goodbye. It's hard saying goodbye to one good friend, it's heart-bursting saying goodbye to ALL your friends and family. The closer we are to leaving, the more real it becomes and there's that little voice saying "Do you really want to do this?"

Whenever there is big change in my life I worry about it, I mourn the life I'm changing. I send myself crazy asking myself why I'm changing a perfectly good life. Today I experienced about 8000 emotions in a few short hours, it's all a bit overwhelming. I think I'm going to have a lump in my throat for the next few weeks.


  1. Oh love, I'll still be here for you xx

  2. Huge stuff - but exciting, exhilarating stuff.
    Lots of deep breaths.

  3. Oh your poor darling. I can only imagine how difficult the farewells were/will be. And I think 8000 emotions is a pretty accurate number. Change always makes us uneasy, but before you know it, you'll be into the groove again... and living through a fab new adventure! Go gently Corinne xoxo

  4. It must be quite full on. To be honest, for someone going through the monotony of new motherhood (I'm just coming out the other side) the aspect of change, new countryside, to not know what comes next, a chance to spread and flex your brain in new ways...well, I'm a little envious:) Enjoy it and know that you have all of us here cheering you on.xx


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