Tuesday, 5 June 2012

Anticipation

The sunrise this morning. The calm before the storm.

Anticipation. It's a weird thing. It can be exciting. Scary. Wonderful. Dreadful.

Some times, it feels like you live your whole life in anticipation. Of something. Anything.
Maybe life is actually just anticipation of the next thing.

There's a severe weather warning today for Sydney. As the meteorological guy on the radio said yesterday, it's one we'll remember weather wise for a while. Yet, for most of the morning it's been a glorious day, blue skies and sunshine. Despite this there's electricity in the air, anticipation. As I type, the clouds are rolling in and the wind is starting to bluster.

Lil-lil has her very first school excursion today and to say she's excited is an understatement. As we pulled up to the front of school and she saw the bus waiting she nearly jumped out of her skin. "We're not doing school work all day! It's going to be so fun!" She doesn't know what to expect, but this she knows it's another first in a year of big firsts. I think the excitement she felt this morning will be more thrilling than the day itself.

Then there's that type of anticipation that churns your stomach. You try and imagine what it's going to be like. Feel like. But you're clueless. It's like clunk, clunk, clunking up a roller-coaster and you hit that point where the ride is really about to start. Your stomach rises up. There's no way of jumping off. You don't know if it's going to be exhilarating. Boring. Wonderful. Scary. Dreadful. Disappointing. All you can do is close your eyes, clench your fists and go with it. The anticipation is so thick it envelopes you, almost lifts you up off your seat.

We've got a whole heap of balls up in the air at the moment. Who knows where they're going to land. If they're going to land. Are the going to create a dent or a crater or not be felt at all? I hate not knowing. I always want to flip to the last page and see what happens. Anticipation. It's a beautiful, torturous thing.

3 comments:

  1. Thanks for the weather warning!! I didn't know.

    I am NO GOOD at anticipation. Good kind or bad kind, I just go to pieces.

    I hope those balls all land safely in the palm of your hand. x

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  2. Absolutely.
    Patience ain't a virtue I've been gifted, that's for sure.

    I hope it all falls beautifully for you.
    :-) x

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  3. Yep, I'm reading you loud and clear Corinne. Anticipation is as wonderful as it is terrible. It's the thing that creates all the nerves and anxiety, but also energy and positivity.
    The weather warning seems to have lived up to the hype. Scott sent me a message mid-afternoon just giving me the heads up about the weather in case I wasn't aware... I replied that I was "all over it... and had been waiting for the beast all day!" Haha, says a lot about my life these days... weather is a big event for me.
    Hope Lil lil enjoyed her excursion thoroughly... the bus breaking down must have made it that much more exciting too.
    Oh and we made it home from preschool pickup dry and safe xoxo

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